Thursday, April 24, 2008

We need help settling something....

We've heard people say Robbie looks like... James Franco We've also heard people say Robbie looks like... Ashton Kutcher But I think he looks like...James Marsden Who's with me?!?!?!?!?

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Only 4 weeks?!?!?!? Are you kidding me?!?!?!?!

So...it looks like I only have 4 weeks left until sweet baby Ivy arrives. Of course, that's according to the calendar. I have a feeling I'm going to go past my due date. I guess only time will tell. She's still carrying pretty high, but she is also running out of room! My wedding ring is starting to feel...not tight...but tighter. And my ankles are starting to blend into my calves just a little bit. (But my sister in law painted my toes the other day, so I still enjoy looking at me feet!) :) My heartburn is of course out of control, as are my chocolate cravings! My dad is almost done making her a cradle, and her crib is being shipped as we speak! So, all in all evidence shows we are close and ready! And as ready as I feel physically and materialistically, I felt an emotion last night that I haven't felt before...
I cried myself to sleep last night thinking of my sweet husband and how I wasn't ready for anything to change between us. I felt like I wasn't ready to share him, and I wasn't ready to be shared. Is this a completely selfish emotion, or is it okay for me to feel this way? I'm so grateful for this miracle, and we have been looking forward to welcoming her into our family for a long time, and I already feel a mother's love toward Ivy...but I am simultaneously sensing a tiny bit of anxiety as I see the days slipping away knowing that soon our lives will be changed forever NEVER to go back to the way it was. Maybe I'm not as good with change as I thought. I know that a baby doesn't have to change things for the worse between you and your husband, but what things can I do to make sure they change for the better? Are these emotions just pregnancy hormones? Does everyone have them? *sigh* I'm trying so hard to enjoy the present and not ruining it by living in the past or in a future I can't predict...but my anxiety is getting the best of me. Am I making any sense? I hesitated sharing this, but I feel maybe there are some of you who can offer some advice... I'm sure this will pass, but until then...